筵席背後

豐富的筵席背後，有被隱藏了的勞動，包括廚房中筵席前前後後的工作：切呀煮呀洗呀，還有食物的來沿，我們不大會想起的農民、公平交易等。

如果聖餐是耶穌為我們設的筵席，那麼我們怎麼看待有關的公平問題，例如男女平等、企業良心等議題？

聖餐中的餅和酒，究竟從何而來？聖餐後誰來洗洗擦擦？工業化、企業化的餅酒生產，背後有多少工人被剝削的故事？當真工人應得工價？

教會裡的層層階級，是否也有剝削與歧視？高高在上的牧師，當真不應做洗碗搬椅子這等「下等」工作？

To read list

Julia Kristeva

Spivak

Maybe Foucault as well

Seek solace in books

And guess what, that latest comfort book is The Ethics of Sex!

Since actions speak louder than words, since I am confused by the the discrpencies I see between the actions and the words, I try to drown myself in more words, written ones this time.

My 2010 exhibits at LTS

I call these photos transient, using an adjective because the noun transience sounds too permanent.

Sadness is but a moment, so is the most impenetrable darkness before dawn, or the exposed brick wall before it’s whitewashed again. Or the crystal blue sky above Tao Fong Shan before the start of the 7 am Friday Morning Eucharist, or the seconds before the traffic light turns green while one is wearily standing by the zebra-crossing, head lowered and one’s world is reduced to the ground just under the feet. But there are moments of surprises that allow you to transcend the dull and drab life no matter how short-lived they are, like the red plastic bag that suddenly materializes into the corner of my eye, the colour reminding me life can be vibrant and fun if I allow myself to let go of the melancholy and let bits of colours, lights, and even shadows seep into my heart.

All these photos are somehow related to TFS. The first one was taken after a long day at LTS and much walking. I was so tired that I felt my legs were like two big blocks of ice, melting, when suddenly something red came to my eye. It was an ordinary red plastic bag, the kind you could find in any wet markets. After that moment of a red entry, my grey life became colourful again.

The second photo shows the wall at the Moon Gate at TFS. For a few days, the wall stood exposed, showing the red bricks underneath. I had never suspected that under that blinding white lay such raw beauty.

The third and fourth photos are related to our 7 am Friday Morning Eucharist. The one with a big cross was taken with a cell phone when I was traveling on the first bus going from Tuen Mun to Shatin. It must be around 5:30 am, the world was still fast asleep, and yet this cross still stood and watched over that area where my primary school used to stand. That cross had been part of my life for 6 years and yet never did I know there’s a church there. It used to house many bird nests, but all are gone now, leaving a bitter sweet nostalgia.

The last photo was taken before the start of the Friday Morning Eucharist. That’s my best moment in a week. I could still smell the chill of the night, and yet the sky was gradually lighting up. That blue sky reminded me of one of my happiest moments in life. I wanted to hold on to that, but all things beautiful usually have a life span too short, we could never have enough of them.

基督教倫理

我仍未搞清楚究竟倫理是甚麼，更不用提基督教倫理了。

正修讀基督教倫理導論，我提出一個問題：課堂的內容都是沿自「西方」哲學思想，大家努力消化那些甚為alien的理論，設法明白老師的講課，所謂何事？我不介意認識「西方」哲學，畢竟本人的學術生涯早就被打入「西化」之列，但有時覺得也學得太勉強了。(Spike拉比挑戰我這個東方/西方對立的說法，我只能夠說，放過我吧，我就加個「」好了。)

下周四是分組做presentation的大日子，我組的題目是關於性倫理，我對body有興趣，且看會否找到可以應用在聖餐的資料。

Chapel in the evening

連我也喜歡這個妹妹

她的電郵教我歡喜。

你在彼方快樂嗎？願你一切安好，願你把握自己的幸福，不要害怕，勇往直前吧！