Waking up (draft)

Now I see the world for what it is,
But I still don't want to sleep.
In pain I still want to feel this love
Even it hasn't gone the way I want.

For a moment, I had this epiphany
Of the selfish me.
Then I walked, always walked,
To clear my head
And get rid of
This dryness in my mouth,
These tears in my eyes.

I've determined to love
No
Matter
What,
Challenges I face,
Yes,
But
I'm determined,
Even though
The world is laughing
At my folly.

(Written at McCafe while waiting for my coffee, after I cried myself out from the foothill to the shopping mall at Shatin.)